Goodfellas

LM dropped by tonight. We’ve had a few references to the gangster genre lately, and he was able to tell me that HD has a hard on for me. He’s got it in for me, that is, if you don’t follow The Sopranos. I was a bit taken aback. Apparently, this is a continuation of his complaint about my attitude, and the fault seems to be that I’m not deferential enough when speaking to management, HD himself in particular. It’s a genuine puzzle. I’m no-one’s arse licker, but I’m polite to everyone I deal with, I like to think. Ah well.

I can handle this, but LM’s looking very cheesed off. I think it’s him that HD’s got the hard on for, actually, and I’m just another stick to beat him with, now that TOHH is off the scene. It could be that HD, a kind of semi-literate, muscular hamster, is the sort of manager who best deals with people by beating them into submission, convincing them of their worthlessness...

To continue with the language of the motif, he’s a cocksucker. This morning, I heard LM ask him if he had any ideas about improving the students’ rotten punctuality. HD mimicked cocking and firing a large gun, sound effects and all. He reminds me of David Brent, only not so funny.

I don’t know how this will end for LM. He’s missing his wife, and she’s afraid of flying, and if he’s taking shit from management, well, why stay? He’s got enough qualifications and experience to get a University job, and do a Doctorate. Which is what he’s talked about doing tonight. He’s been there before, but talk of resignation is like talk of suicide – it should never be entirely ignored, and one day, the talker might just act.

I had thought that in the event of LM jumping ship, I might be in line for his shoes. But not with HD having the needle. Anyway, T4 is expected soon, and she was on the shortlist for that job, so she must be favourite. IF she ever gets here. She’s been in the pipeline for eight months now.

I got the impression that LM would feel better if I jumped with him, but I won’t. This is ok for me, especially when, inshallah, the wife and bairn get out here. HD’s animosity can actually give quite a bit of entertainment value.

What’s the stupid little fuck gonna do? Clip me? Forget about it!